Looking at the list, which I limited to ten, half would have been on my list last year, the year before, and even on lists from several years ago. Like those proverbial resolutions to lose weight, exercise more, and so forth, the idea of accomplishing most things on my list seems to slip away over time.
Perhaps this means that I have very little resolve. I certainly am brimming with intentions and hopes, but ensuring they come to fruition is not always my strong point. Is this a character fault that I should immediately resolve to change? I hope to improve, I intend to, but this very trait may need to show up on a future list of New Year’s Resolutions.The idea of hoping to finish something feels uplifting, like an elusive emotion will carry me happily into action. Intending to complete a project seems like a great idea waiting to happen, if life doesn’t get in the way. But committing with absolute resolve to finishing a given quilt gives me a foreboding sense of dread. Not that I do not like the quilt, but having to finish it instead of wanting to makes me feel a bit like a two-year-old faced with a bowl of lima beans and asparagus.
Maybe it is all just a matter of semantics. After all, I usually do great work when up against a deadline, which may be why baby and wedding quilts get done before projects that are not tied to a date. Deadlines tend to improve my resolve. But how am I supposed to finish a quilt just for me, when there is no deadline? And would there be any delight in making a quilt just for me, if it was tied to a sense of obligation? Perhaps there are situations where resolve is not the appropriate approach.After thinking about all these things, I have resolved to revise my list of New Year’s Resolutions. I will include three categories—things I hope to accomplish, things I intend to accomplish, and a few things to which I must truly apply my resolve, and make happen.
I sincerely hope this helps. I intend to see it through. I am resolved only to write the list, however. Time will sort out what actually gets accomplished.
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